Upon the release of the Epstein files, my nervous system has been cycling between fight, flight, and freeze mostly defaulting to freeze. Last week, I couldn't write. I tried, but I couldn't get any words out. I was blocked in freeze. For several weeks, I had not done yoga. I hadn't taken many walks. I hadn't gotten the boys out of the house nearly as much as I usually do. We had been hunkering down. I have been a low key "conspiracy theorist" for years and years now, so a lot of this...

I happened upon some of the contents of the Epstein Files a few days ago. I had been a little sick to my stomach anyway this week, but I had a physical response to what I read making me so upset that I nearly threw up. So upset, in fact, that I couldn't even get the words out to tell Erik that I was upset or why for over a full 24 hours. When I finally told him, I could barely utter the words. It is unspeakable horrors against children. I cried. I raged. I thought of my own children, and I...

God has been showing new and exciting things to my family. We are in a period of learning and growth. Something is shifting in our operating process. My hormones are shifting back to normal. Since I was pregnant with Ben, I have had a Dowagers hump, and interestingly, after a very unpleasant day of family turmoil, Erik noticed that my hump, which is related to high cortisol and stress actually dramatically shrunk. I question if it's kind of like cleaning a closet where it needs to get really...