Harmonizing is not something that came easily to me. For a long time, I just couldn’t figure it out. It’s something I’ve had to work hard to be able to do and often would need my dad or Erik to help me find my notes.
I can’t tell you how many times my dad had to sing like a girl to show me what my part would be. Before singing in public, I always like to practice my harmonies at least a couple times to make sure they are right.
Oddly enough, lately, I have had no trouble at all finding the harmony. My mind was drawn to something I learned in a yoga teacher training course I took about the 5th chakra (throat chakra.) Apparently, when an individual has a blocked throat chakra, they have a hard time being honest and communicating their hearts truthfully.
They have a hard time speaking their truth. One thing a blocked throat chakra causes is tone deafness. Until recently, I never even realized I had a block in this area.
Lately, I have been on a role with speaking the truth in my heart, and out of the blue, all of a sudden, BAM! I am finding harmonies with ease. Coincidence? I think not.
It was the summer of 2017, when I had the revelation that I matter too. My experiences, feelings, and emotions are valid, and they matter. Until this pivotal point in my life, I genuinely did not realize it.
I thought other people’s experiences, emotions, and feelings mattered more than my own, and I attempted to stuff my feelings down which resulted in me eventually blowing up rather than having the ability to express what I need to express in a calm way as I went.
It’s been a process, but that moment birthed a whole new aspect of me. It’s been a journey. It’s not easy learning to manage and deal with these feelings and emotions that I had been stuffing down for so long. Like anything, it takes time to learn to navigate something new and unlearn old bad habits/ trauma responses.
I referred to it as a birth, and I think that’s a very accurate depiction. For a while there, I was literally like a baby trying to figure out a whole new world. I’ve since developed to a small child in this area. 😆😉
I was just talking to my dad this morning who was saying how it’s important to have grace and patience for ourselves as we navigate. We’re bound to get it wrong. Just as we don’t (or shouldn’t) expect small children to get it right all the time. We need to extend that same courtesy, grace, and compassion to ourselves as we learn new ways of being.
Erik and I have these kind of discussions as well. It’s important to have grace for each other too. I flat out told him one day, “I’m like a toddler in the communication of my feelings department. Please know my heart and bear with me while I work through this stuff.”
I try to do the same for him. We’re just two kids trying to figure it out together. Remembering this has seriously helped us grow together.
As I continue on my journey to find and speak the truth, I am reminded of John 8:32.
“And you will know the truth and the truth will set you free.”
What I know is that I have been set free. If what you believe to be truth is keeping you in bondage and not freeing you, it’s not truth.
In my last blog, I talked about the importance of remembering that we are love as we speak the truth. I started searching the Bible for what it had to say about truth, and interestingly enough, verse after verse confirmed what my heart (God in me) was speaking to me organically.
“Rather, speaking the truth in love, we are to grow up in every way into him who is the head, into Christ.” Ephesians 4:15
Don’t silence your truth! Just speak it remembering who you are and that is love. You are love. I am love. I’m still pretty new to all of this, so I’m bound to fail, but I’m over here doing my best.
To be in perfect harmony, truth and love must go hand in hand. ❤️